Mortality

One of the most difficult thing that all humans have to deal with is the issue their own mortality. Recently a Facebook quiz, one of the questions was how I live my last day. I also just began reading the last lecture by Randy Pausch. The opening chapter in his book talks about his own mortality and how he was torn between trying to leave a legacy of knowledge for his wife and children versus spending time with them. His wife recounts her selfishness but wanting him to forget about his “last lecture” and spend that time with her and the kids. These two issues combined made me think, what I do on my last day? When I go to work and build one more display, would I spend the day at the park with my kids, would I spend it in the living room retelling funny stories about my life and their’s?

One of the hardest things about keeping this blog up to date is finding the material for me to write about area as I have learned so many times in the past, is that your brain cannot write if it does not have food; and that food is reading. I have added one feature my computer that will hopefully allow me to add more frequent posts and longer posts. And that is a text-to-speech program called Dragon NaturallySpeaking. My goal in using this program is not to have grammar and spelling perfect posts, but to allow deeper ramblings and more thoughts to appear on this blog.

Does this mean I will post every day? Every week? Every month? I don’t know. What I do know, is that I’m trying… and that’s all that matters.

 

Balanced Atoms and Balanced Families

During my live chat session for my college biology class, we were discussing electrical charges in atoms regarding having too many electrons or protons and the atom becomes less stable. On my home from Starbucks, there was a song in the radio about a guy who had his whole future planned out around having a boy, but wound up with a little girl instead. It got me thinking about how unbalanced my family could be having two boys instead of one boy and one girl. Leo is a handful for me and I know he is for Dallas. I don’t mean in a bad way, just a young boy growing up, imagining two of those could be a little overwhelming. Each of my kids has different gifts and needs and in a way add to the balance of our overall family. There are times that each of my kids bugs me to the point of wanting to run away, but in truth I cannot imagine my life without them in it.

Grillin’

I originally planned on spending a little me time while waiting for the grill to heat up. I had not sat down for more than a minute when my three year old son appears next to me on his stool. We counted to ten and recited ABCs and had an interesting conversation for his age. Sometimes it’s great being a dad.

Values

Decisions are based on values. You can say they’re based on consequences, but consequences are value based. A married man will have an affair because he values the exciting new relationship more than the one he has at home. Life would be simple if values were constant and never changed, but the only constant is that things are always changing. Something as simple as having a conversation with my three year old son over what he wants for breakfast changes the value of my home and family life.